My birthday is exactly a month away! Despite everything negative that seems to be lingering in my life, I’m actually excited about this birthday. Truth be told, I have a lot to be excited about. New job, publishing possibilities, school, body goals being met, and of course my Birthday! This has been a pretty tough year for me, so any reason to celebrate is going to be taken.
More than anything I’m excited that I’m not in the same space I was last year. I’ve learned a lot, loss a lot, and had a shift in the entire way I view life, love, and my mentally stability. My faith was definitely tested this past year. (My sanity as well) It’s been tough and although things aren’t what I want them to be, I know for certain I’m taking the right steps toward my goals and dreams. On today, I found myself complaining about things I literally have no control over. I started making myself responsible for others and their actions. A BIG “No-No”. I can’t and won’t allow myself to go back to that place.
I’m happy to be in a place right now that I’m able to look at the bright side of things. I’m able to find the good in every situation I’ve been through. I know the people that are truly in my corner and I’ve successfully gotten rid of the snakes and leeches. I also know the importance in speaking life versus death. No matter what people may say or thing about me, I know who I am and who I’m becoming. I won’t allow anyone to discredit me again. I won’t allow anything I’ve been through or anyone to cause me shame. I can’t allow negative energy in my space(under no circumstances). In the end, I regret nothing!